stupid exams..

ever had those thoughts?? where u wonder if it'll hurt if you throw yourself off a building? or accidentally slip somewhere to hurt yourself.. or suddenly wake up one morning with no memory of what you've done for the last 2 days......

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..........

i wish!!! stupid exams.. those thoughts are becoming more frequent now.. wondering how i can land myself in hospital or something and just skip it all... freaking pissing off shit... why do we even do this to ourselves? as a test? what makes the straight a student feel so much smarter than the guy who didnt do so well? just coz that the straight a student mugged the whole year? and the guy who didnt do so well studied 2 hours before the exam and still passed? kinda makes u think about the pathetic mindset of society doesnt it...

why even sit for it anywayz? coz our parents make us. coz if i walked up to them and said.. hey i'm not prepared for this exam and i'll sit for it next sem... no biggie.. i'll get the whole.. "wtf?? why cant u be more responsible? whats wrong with your attitude? dont u know you have to study hard, get a's, get a secure job, make a measely couple of thousands working for someone else, live in a delusional world believing that this is what u've wanted to do all your life and stay "happy"?

well guess what. i've had enough.

i wont study what i dont want to. fuck accounts. never liked it in the first place.

i refuse to end up working for someone else.

i refuse to get into a stable job. i rather live like a pauper for the first few years my company is growing then laugh at all the suckers that didnt believe in me when i drive that new BMW

i refuse to settle for thousands. i want to make millions.

i'm sitting in the wrong degree. i hate it. i dont want to be an accountant. do i look like an accountant to you? honestly? a five year old could tell you the answer for that one.

just because i can doesn't mean i have to.

Bimbotic Junkie.